This is where I am right now. For the sake of my mental wellbeing I have largely stopped engaging online because most people are still carrying on like everything is great. I mean I get that everything going on in the world is a dumpster fire and we have to find our joys but for some people that is their only mode and honestly it feels a little morally bankrupt in some cases. That's their choice and it's fine but then it gets dismissive to the point that you can't even talk to them about anything real without being told you're negative and nobody wants to hear that. I got censored by someone just for saying that I was opting out of supporting the current economy.
Like WTF! I get that you're dedicated to your useless consumerism but there was absolutely no criticism or telling you what to do. You do you. IDC! That was an instant unfollow and block. It was a relief honestly as it reminded me of how much I have to censor myself just to interact online because some people really just want to interact through fake empty platitudes which is seriously so exhausting. That's why I'm done with them and don't engage with anything that doesn't resonate with me anymore. Not having to force toxic positivity has been liberating and given me so much peace.I don't really GAF about anyone's overconsumption or their makeup or outfits right now unless they're part of the CC community. It's just all so insignificant when people are being snatched off the streets and getting deported simply because of the color of their skin while we are losing our rights and any last benefits our tax dollars are supposed to go towards are being sent to fund wars overseas. I'm scared. I'm a POC and I'm worried for my family and friends. This country has never been a good place for us and it's only going to get worse. I can't pretend otherwise. Before anyone jumps to any weird conclusions, my life is fine. I'm doing well and I'm currently keeping busy with projects, learning and hobbies. I'm eating well, physically active and taking care of my health. Turns out avoiding getting sick is having a very positive impact on my life. I'm very fortunate to be married to someone who is supportive and likeminded. I'm also staying informed and preparing myself with long range plans. Avoiding reality and choose to be willfully ignorant is one of the reasons we are where we are now and doing that doesn't make anything that's happening any less true or horrific but nobody wants to hear that.
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I can understand that you no longer feel comfortable in your country. Of course, I don't know the exact events and circumstances, but I see news reports, and they aren't very good.
The internet and various platforms are also in a lot of trouble. Normal conversation and discussions are barely possible anymore.
You are a wonderful human with a steady moral compass. Love your friend. I’m glad you thrive.
I feel you Rowena. This is exactly where I am at these days. The world is a growing dumpster fire and so many people turning a blind eye and not giving a damn. It is exhausting. I have seen so many horrors involving innocent children and worrying sick about what is happening over in the USA; it drives me crazy how nonchalant people are. I try so hard to engage on platforms like instagram but it's hard to comment on pretty ensembles and material things when our world and society are crumbling. I don't really even know how to engage or interact anymore. I don't think I want to either. I feel so helpless and hopeless these days. It's awful what is going on where you live. I am terrified for my family over there. The endless kidnappings by ICE and confrontations. The stress and sadness of the loved ones left behind. It's ludicrous and feels like a bad dream. How is any of this real? Stay safe my friend, feel reach out if you ever need to talk or vent. I wish I could offer more or do more, but at this point I don't even know anymore.
Sxx
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